Notice

I'll probably delete this blog but I will create a new one and it will be a dump of thoughts.

Ciao.

Found this photo and I thought I might want to share :)

8/15/2012 (and probably some stuff that happened the past week)

1. I got to enroll early during the stormy week and luckily they didn't roll it back. I'm taking only three subjects (two major and Thesis 1) next term so I can easily focus on our thesis.

2. The deadline of our interpreter project got delayed because of the monsoon rain. I'm glad it happened but I'm not happy about the many homes that were flooded and school got delayed.

3. My friend just loved the music that I made. It made me feel all giddy inside. I miss him so dearly.

4. Today, we went to the P.E. department to look for resource people for our thesis. An old lady standing next to the secretary desk asked us what we need and we said that we were looking for PhDs on Sports Medicine. She asked us to follow her to her room and we found out that she was the head of the P.E. department.

5. I haven't seen my WG friends in ages. Just wait and this project will be finished.

Cain and Abel

I am going to vent out my anxieties here.

First and foremost, I am currently having a Cain and Abel relationship with my brother. Ever since he entered college, I think my family has turned to praising him because he's working very hard while I am considered the irresponsible one. True that I am but it's also because Computer Science is a challenging course. My brother is majoring in Fine Arts in Painting at UST.

He paints. He started when he was in his third or fourth year in high school and I admired him for his passion in doing it. I feel jealous of him because everything's going easy for him even if he's working hard for it. It's like my muse has abandoned me.

I know that I am a lazy person but it's just that I think my brother has the patience and perseverance in his works. I don't even think my family would appreciate my works.

I am thinking about this right now because I just saw him paint a picture of my grandmother, and we're gonna have dinner with her tomorrow because her birthday's nine days away. I might go on another "jealousy-insecurity depression" tomorrow.

Red Prose I

Author's commentary: This was from a recent dream I just had. I think it happened twice already. The Chinatown I presented here was not really the one I went to before. I made it as a setting because my dream resembled a part of it and a bit of Recto.

Warning: Nightmarish material. Do not want.

Lorenzo peeped out the window of his car as it sped through the bustling shopping district of Chinatown. Cement buildings that surrounded it were covered in ornate red and gold motifs. Some signs showed strange golden characters that he could not read and some showed smiling babies surrounded by carps and fruits.

It was hot Sunday. Restaurants were full of locals and mainlanders. People carrying large bags and parcels strolled around. Street vendors yelled at bystanders to force them to buy their goods. Sweaty and muscular men went out of trucks, carried huge sacks of rice and other belongings.

"Let's find a place to park," his father said as he drove through a building. There, he found an open space for them to park. "I'm hungry," Lorenzo said before they locked the car and walked. "Stay with me, okay?" his father said, giving him a pat on the head.

They went to a bake shop closest to the parking lot. "Your mother might want some rice cakes," his father said when they opened the door. "What do you want, son?" "I would like this one," Lorenzo said as he handed over a pack of hopiang ube. "Are you sure you don't want any other than that?" his father chuckled. Lorenzo just shook his head. 

As they left the store, they walked through the hot sun to look for a place to eat. His father laid his hand on his son's shoulder while they ignored the noisy street vendors. Lorenzo's eyes laid on strange dragon masks that stare at anyone who passes by and colorful action figures whose brand names were misspelled.

"What in the world?" his father said as they suddenly went to a full stop after crossing the street. A crowd of people surrounded a part of the district where a huge restaurant was nearby. It looked like how an exciting street performance would go.

They both approached the scene to find an ornate stand adorned in red and gold. It looked like a large shrine as people gathered around it like some place of worship. A small sign laid on top of the stand in which his father read it as "The Sleeping Man".

A sweaty and shirtless Chinese man was rubbing oil on a half-naked man lying down on his chest on the surface of the stand. He laid fast asleep as half of his body was covered with a red blanket. Both of them thought it was an elaborate massage service. 

As soon as the Chinese man stopped massaging the sleeping man, he removed the blanket. The audience cheered but the two had their jaws dropped at the sight to behold. The sleeping man's head, the upper half of his torso and arms were all what's left of him. The rest of his body were brown and crispy. 

The Chinese man took out a large knife and a fork. He plunged the fork into where the sleeping man's buttocks were. He sliced through the thick, brown skin and peeled it to reveal a slab of dark and white meat underneath. The man continued to sleep soundly as the Chinese man went on with removing the skin from his thighs down to his feet. 

The crowd went wild as they pulled each other's hairs out in order to have some of the sleeping man's meat and skin. The Chinese man snapped his fingers as a shorter man gave them some plastic bags. He started slicing equal parts skin, along with white and dark meat for each person to savor. "Thank you," an elderly woman said with tears on her eyes as she got her piece of meat and skin.

   

"I can't believe they legalize this shit here," Lorenzo's father said. His hand was covering his son's eyes ever since the Chinese man revealed the horror that would scar both of them for life. "Let's leave." "Why did we have to stay, dad?" he asked quietly. "I'm so sorry, son," his father said as they continued walking. "Sometimes, we should be aware of the things around us. Even the terrible things."

This Horrible/Good Week

+Stayed in Malate office for residency. I met some new people. They're amazing.

+Had my first IRL conversation with Ram when we went home together. He sort of fucked with my brain with his questions.

+The World Building workshop was a success!! Thank you so much Pau, Angie, Lanz...EVERYONE for being part of this.

+There was supposed to be a prose workshop last Saturday but classes were suspended and it was already flooded in school.

+Got to watch "The Dark Knight Rises". SO AWESOME. But honestly, I liked the second one better because of Joker.

RANT (basically how everyone feels in a group I guess)

Do I have to be the one to constantly remind everyone in the group? Do I have to be the one who will tell everyone what to do? Do I have to be the one to do all the thinking?

WHAT IF I FORGET THIS? WHAT IF I FORGET THAT?

PLEASE. Please be the one who will remind me. Please be the one to ask me what's happening.

LET'S ALL BE PROACTIVE AND NOT JUST ME.

Music Recommendations III

Dream-like rock

1. Take a Picture - Filter
2. Sextape - Deftones
3. Into the Ocean (Calling You) - Evermore
4. Weird Fishes/Arpeggi - Radiohead
5. Aqueous Transmission - Incubus
6. You Look So Fine - Garbage
7. Champagne Supernova - Oasis
8. Walking After You - Foo Fighters
9. Breaking the Girl - Red Hot Chili Peppers
10. All Is Full of Love - Bjork

Pain and Suffering

I can finally feel the stress of everyone that I know. I've always wanted to feel everyone's pain and suffering because I hate it when I don't suffer and they do.

It feels good.

This has been the worst week of my life. I'm going to bed. Good night, motherfuckers.

So fucking lonely

Sometimes I'm not able to do stuff because I feel lonely. My family does keep me company here but lately I'd prefer my best-est friends to be around here. Sometimes I don't even want to leave my friends behind when at school. I just hate this feeling.

This Week so Far

• Made a new friend
• MIDTERMS!!!
• Received some (a little bit) shocking news about some of my relatives
• Progress with thesis proposal and topic
• Just done with the interview for Malate and exam tomorrow
• Tomorrow's gonna be a super hectic Friday (WG activities, friend's lunch party, Art in Action, etc)
• Got to write something. I'm gonna write an anthology instead.

I hope this week ends with a BANG. Just can't wait for tomorrow.

Attachment

Okay, here's my problem about being attached to people: I tend to be clingy if I like the person.

 I dunno....I also don't want people to be too clingy, especially if I don't like them. I just wish people won't be angry at what I'm doing I mean...it's not like I'm in love with them or something. It's just fun to be with certain people for a while but I think that sometimes, we need to give them some space.

I'm writing this out of fear that things won't go awkward between me and my friends, especially my newly acquainted one.

Strange Things Happen: MY BLOG HELPED SOMEONE AND I'M SO HAPPY.

Ok, I suddenly made a shout out to this guy who my friend knows because he commented on that friend's status. I recognize him because he liked a dozen of my posts in Tumblr. He suddenly thanked me for my posts and asked me to see him tomorrow. I'm so proud to have made a friend instantly.

Damn you FB

I thought FB was going to be the most effective way to communicate with my groupmates. In fact, it's not. Nobody's cooperating with me. At certain times they do but mostly, shit doesn't get real.

I'm done.

There. I changed my blog style.

It looks more MINIMALIST now because I'M SO HIPSTER.

LOL kidding. I might make my own background image. *wink* *wink*

The Legendary Glen Miller Orchestra

Okay, let me just say that this was a great show. It felt like you were in some 40's film where you waltzed around town in your zoot while driving a fancy car on your way to a cabaret show. The orchestra played music that was composed during the World War II. 

This happened last Monday. I know this is a late post but better late than never. I went to this concert with my friends Pau, Nicol, John (and his dad) and Fons. Pau got us some sponsored tickets from a friend so we got to watch it for free. Before I begin, I should share some things that happened other than the show itself: the audience was full of old people and we were only among the few young ones around here. It was a funny experience and we were quite flattered when the old people were surprised that we appreciate their music. Another is that I sat beside John's dad and he told me about the songs being played. He's an awesome dad.


The show started with Mr. Arthur Manintang, who was said to be the country's best crooner. He was damn good and the audience loved him because he sang so well up to the point where he mentioned that he was not feeling well. I was amazed on how he poured his heart out even though he was sick and the best part was he did an impression of his legendary singing heroes such as Leonard Cohen, Nat King Cole, Ray Charles, Michael Bolton and others while singing "What a Wonderful World".

Next, the show itself was amazing. There were parts where there were vocalists that were singing with the music. I have to love Wendy Brunet (I don't know if that is the correct spelling) but she has a wonderful voice. I also love the Swing Kittens posing as the Andrew's Sisters. They were so adorable. They were actually one of the reasons why I went to this concert because I started admiring them through Christina Aguilera's "Candyman" video. I forgot the name of the male vocalist but he was also damn good.

Watching this show has been very insightful for me because it's music that might be forgotten in later decades but I'm sure that a few people in our generation would still appreciate this kind of music. It also helped me expand my musical tastes, which is important for me. And lastly, it was a not-so-perfect time to forget about homework. I really had a good time and I hope there would be more of this to perform live here.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: Day 8

8. Write something stupid.

What if there was a movement for hipsters against Instagram where they use glitter graphics, LENS FLARE or other visually appalling shit to filter their pictures? XD

Problematic

Academics aside, I think I'm experiencing problems with people.

One thing is that I feel alone and out of place sometimes. I can't even tell my own friends about my deepest, darkest secrets because I don't want them to be annoyed or disturbed by it. I might even end up talking about it all day. I'm going insane.

I just figured out that someone I like likes someone else. I wanted to tell her that I want to take care and even protect her even if I know she can do that to herself. It's nothing very romantic. Maybe we can still be good friends.

I can't stop thinking about this guy right now. I'm afraid that he might be just another asshole I fell in love with. I don't think he'll even reciprocate because he's straight. I would understand where he's coming from. He's just so interesting and we commonly like and hate a lot of things.

If you want to talk to me about it, do not hesitate but for the sake of friendship, you might as well don't. I hate ruining friendships as much as you do.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 7

7. Write something deep.

Surely, we 90's people have a generation to boast about. We watched the best TV shows and cartoons on television that we can relate too. We had the best toys that we played when we were kids.. We played the best games in our Jurassic computers and consoles. 

Right now, I think people are assuming that the new generation is retarded. Look at the new episodes of Spongebob. Look at these new cartoons spewing out nonsense that I can't even comprehend (I'm not talking about Adventure Time, Phineas and Ferb or Chowder because at least there are some good cartoons being aired). Listen to these Top 40 songs that old people call "noise". 

I get really upset when I see these posts on the net about "Repost if you remember this" or "If you had this, your childhood was awesome" because I pity the generation now. They're being exposed to things that don't even have a meaning. If you've watched cartoons like the old "Dexter's Lab" or "Johnny Bravo", you'll soon realize that people who made these shaped us to be aware of things around us and not some stupid slapstick comedy.

 Generally, the music today  was even considered very risky back then and these kids are already being exposed to explicit, distasteful stuff. At least our music, TV shows and cartoons before were obscure and discreet until we grow old and find out what the fuss was all about and we can relate to them in a good way.

When I grow older and have children, I am going to make them watch these cartoons I used to watch and the music I used to listen to when I was a kid. I don't want them to be exposed to these nonsensical, brain draining hooplah in the mainstream. I'm not being hipster, I'm being smart. I want the upcoming generation to be exposed to things they can relate to and can find a deeper meaning in them in order to find themselves rather than conform themselves to everything that is "in". It's all because these mainstream shit are so shallow that it hurts my brain and make me want to weep for humanity.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: Day Six

6. Write a paragraph to somebody - it could be anybody you want, even someone you haven’t met yet.


Warning: Creepiness overload


Hi. I know I may sound creepy but when I first saw you, I thought you were just one of the cutest things in the world. Cute as in, attractive in an awkward way. Yeah. Like that. I've stalked you a bit online. I'm like, wow. You are one crazy person. Can I just cuddle and pet you like a puppy? Because I really want to. Don't worry, I won't bite or harm you in any way. I can do it if you like. It's not going to be that bad unless you want to. Oh joy. Back to my sane self. Kbye.

When I have my own money (updated):

• I will treat my friends to awesome eateries like Yakimix or what not.
• I will hoard all the action figures that I like. Same with books.
• Buy a more powerful computer plus some software I would like to use for my craft (art, music, etc).
• Buy VINYLS. I'M SO HIPSTER DON'T JUDGE ME. D:
• TRAVEL
• Buy a house...or maybe a land. Yes, I'm going to the extremes now.

Wait, I don't really need money for now. I don't want to sound like a self-righteous person but I am a simple man. I may desire all those things that money can only buy but those are the only things I want to feel contented. Maybe that will change when I graduate and find/get jobs.

Blog Post 6/29/2012

I haven't been posting in a while. My blog feels so broken so I need to revamp it.

Anyway, here are a few updates in my life. I hope I may not jinx some things:

• Thesis. We're in the stage where we are negotiating with a prof as our adviser. I hope we can get him and move on with our gaming topic.
• Academics. 2nd take on Calculus. Compiler Theory. Thesis. Mind headdesk.
• Love life? Nah. I have a few crushes but it's just a crush on those people.
• Org. We just had our awesome GA. I am in love with everyone.
• Family. Nothing problematic. We're keeping it steady.
• Me. Exercising, thinking and this...blogging.

Note to self: PLEASE UPDATE YOUR BLOG REGULARLY YOU FILTHY LOWLIFE. TEE-HEE.

X

Office Chart 6/29/12

1. Exodus '04 - Utada Hikaru
2. Sensitized - Kylie Minogue
3. Black Coffee - All Saints
4. I'd Rather Be Your Lover - Madonna
5. Bloody Mary - Lady Gaga
6. Moment 4 Life - Nicki Minaj feat. Drake
7. A Place Called Home - PJ Harvey
8. Thunder Plains - Final Fantasy X-2 OST
9. Fire to Your Plain - Tori Amos
10. Seven Days in Sunny June - Jamiroquai

Music Recommendations II

I'm going to do this in a top 10 not-in-any-particular-order format...and for the playlists to come....
Insomnia Playlist (not my own personally insomnia playlist)

This is mostly ambient/electronica music but if upbeat music can make you sleep, go ahead. ^^ I'm sure most of you are familiar with a few of these songs already. XD

1. Pure Shores - All Saints
2. Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
3. To Have and Not to Hold - Madonna
4. Sea of Cloud - Nujabes
5. Breathe - Kylie Minogue
6. The Rip - Portishead
7. Na Na Na - The Knife
8. Building Mode 2 - The Sims OST
9. Spring Haze - Tori Amos
10. Hexagon - Aphex Twin

Music Recommendations I

For the rainy season (music that fits the gray skies)

1. "Vietnam" by Crystal Castles (electronic/experimental)
2. "Faso Latido" by A Static Lullaby (post-hardcore)
3. "Carbon" by Tori Amos (alternative rock)
4. "Xtal" by Aphex Twin (ambient/electronic)
5. "Skyliner" by Boards of Canada (ambient/electronic)
6. "Empire Ants" by Gorillaz (electronic)
7. "Stormy Weather" by Little Dragon (trip-hop/RnB)
8. "Bag of Snow" by Johnny Hollow (electronic/darkwave)
9. "Subterranean Homesick Alien" by Radiohead (alternative rock)
10. "Arisa" by Locust Toybox (electronic)

I made music!!! FINALLY!! Check it out. :D

I have 2 tracks in already:

http://soundcloud.com/raphael-uy

5/17/2012

• Summer class is almost over!! Tomorrow is my last day and I'm free. The only problem is that I might fail calculus (integral) but oh well. I learned a lot from Dr. Reyes and I'm willing to take him again for payback.
• I won't be able to post stuff that I promised to post. 
• I managed to write something after ages of frustration. I might soon open a blog on my writings if they're good enough for everyone to read.
• I haven't been posting here since I usually post on my Tumblr nowadays. Check it out at shiznitphantom.tumblr.com. [Warning: NSFW]

Hey guys!!

So my friend is inviting me in this awesome community service thing that teaches you some skills such as firefighting, ambulance operations, basic life support and first aid training. There will be an orientation/registration on May 12 (Saturday) from 10am - 12nn. The address is on this poster below.

Sadly I can't go to this (but I really wanted to) for undisclosed reasons. If you have the time, please save the date and place because this is your chance to learn how to serve your community and protect your family in the most awesome way.

Thank you

I haven't blogged in a long while, since I don't know what exactly to blog about. I'm planning how to write my musical recommendations and I have one draft that's cooking up but I need the pictures from my achi's cam. T ^ T I'm also trying to do a review of Battleship but I'm too lazy right now due to summer class.

Here are some things I am thankful for (inspired by posts of Angie-kun and Kimbie-san). This post is to fill the gap and so you guys may know stuff that happened to me in the while.

1. Myself
I haven't felt so much gratefulness to myself since I was able to catch on and be able to pass all my subjects last term. I still have a few things to change and improve but I'm proud that I've grown stronger than before.

2. Music
MUSIC IS MY SAVIOR!! Thank the heavens for the music that I love exists. It has been with me through happy and sad times.

3. Pau
You're my best friend and you've been there when I need someone to talk to. Thank you so much.

4. WG People
You guys make me happy everyday but I hope we can have more closure.

5. CCS Friends (JM, Fons, Rox, Nicol, etc)
What can I do without you all? You guys are just awesome.

6. Teacher Ferdie (my math tutor) and Sir Tristan Reyes (our very cool Calculus prof)
You guys made me love Calculus so much. You guys rock!!

7. My family
For your everyday support and for accepting me as a crazy person. I love you all to bits.

And lastly....

7. This fan
For protecting me from the summer heat. This fan is my mom's and she got it from her Eurotrip.

@Angie-kun

How's everybody?

Whew, I'm back from the successive hell weeks and I'm still alive and sane. I've read some of what you guys posted and I'm very, very happy that you guys are still there.

I've got one more exam on Monday and a few more things to do before summer officially starts. This should be a blast!! Stay tuned. ;)

Feelings

Okay, this is weird. I've never had these sorts of feelings for you when we were classmates back in high school. All I can say is that we were just like bros sitting next to each other, giggling and ranting about how we hate a lot of things like Math, a retarded classmate and the school prefect. You introduced me to these awesome punk bands such as Fall Out Boy and My Chemical Romance. We would also talk about skating, video games, music and tons of other shit that we both like.

When we graduated, I started to miss a lot of people. It was you who I missed the most and I don't know why. We never hung out together outside of school. Maybe it was because I totally understood why you have a bad attitude and maybe it's because I have a thing for bad boys. Maybe it was because I empathized you deeply. Like how you answered back against teachers and made a fucking mess out of your Math textbook.

I remember when I wanted to be like you before. You were so fucking cool. You were an asshole (not a douche). After high school, we kinda kept in touch via Facebook, Twitter and Tumblr. It makes me smile when you reblog some of my reblogs or when we just talk together on the social network. Shallow, yes, but I just couldn't help but to be happy.  

It has been three years since I saw you today. You've grown taller than me and you look so fucking badass with all the tattoos and shit. It was so fucking random. I miss you, man.

I ask each and everyone of you....

to reprimand me for each and every mistake I make without any form of assumption. I need to change my attitude now that the school year is ending. I need to stop being lousy and change for the better. It might not be effective but at least it might help even a little bit. Thanks.

I am the laziest officer ever. I deserve to be yelled at.

Slacktivism

Lately, we're having the Kony 2012 craze around Facebook and other social networking sites. I am very much awed by how the internet can be such a powerful tool to spark an initiative and awareness among people. That viral video spread like wildfire. I think the internet is some sort of god that can destroy a whole nation with a single click of a mouse. Amazing.


I'm just surprised by how many people really do care for these issues but I kind of feel skeptical about it. Remember when we all changed our DPs in Facebook into cartoons to protest against child abuse? When my classmates presented it in class and laughed as if they were mocking it, that ignited my doubts on the whole concept of the term. I'm not sure if these people are willing to do generous acts in the present and in the future. I would totally understand that because not everyone would have the luxury of time to volunteer. It's sad that I too am guilty of such things.

We do it so we can show the world that we care.

Lately, I am annoyed by how many pictures of sickly and beaten up people or animals are spread around Facebook or Tumblr. The latter was worse because it showed a mixture of "sweet talk" and sarcasm. For example, I saw a post that said something like "Stop complaining about things in life, this kid had nothing to eat nor drink. REBLOG IF YOU CARE."

Another thing that made me doubt this is that there are conflicts between people who are supportive and those who are not. For example, the Invisible Children video scattered across cyberspace while others dismiss the latter as some sort of scam. I think people, including me, might be gullible enough or not to believe it. It's the I-have-to-share-this-to-make-sure-this-is-legit-or-not dillemma.

Maybe I'll just sit back and watch how these thing goes. I've always wanted to do volunteer work when I have time.

What are your thoughts about this phenomenon? Do you think it would influence a lot of people to commit to change or it's just another instance of bandwagoning?

Heads up

I'm going to post some stuff I'm concerned about today.

Dear all

I can't think of anything to write so I resort to micro/tumblogging instead. I also keep on forgetting the usefulness of drafts to keep your temporary writings at bay. School stuff and laziness is also in my way.

I hope I could post something soon. I might clean up/revamp my site soon.

Laters. x

I DON'T CARE IF YOU CALL ME LAZY OR INCOMPETENT. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THIS PROCESSING BULLSHIT. I HAVE ACADEMICS AND A LIFE TOO, YOU KNOW? I CAN'T THINK OF TWO DIFFERENT THINGS AT ONCE.

My sociopath self might dominate me. Save me from that terrible fate.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: Day Five

5. A picture of your friends being silly.

Sparky and Pau in our field trip at EK

Are People Still Interested?

Don't get me wrong. As an officer of my org, the reason why I wanted to be one is because I want to be part of the crew in this adventure. I also want to be part of organizing activities and learn stuff from it. I also want to meet people and learn how to deal with these kinds of problems.

We're all working very hard to make this org even better and to make people with passion in writing belong.

The problem is that are the people still interested? I mean lately, it seems that almost no one attends the activities anymore. I can't blame the people in the org that I see often (including the officers) since I know they attend and they ARE interested. I can't also blame our publicity committee since I think they're doing their best to inform everyone that there is an activity.

So to the people who don't show often and don't at least help out, why did you even join our org? If you really are committed to join most of our activities or just hang out with us fellow writers, then why not? I would understand if you are busy or you're grounded. It's just that a lot of you wouldn't even bother to show your faces in the tambayan or the activities. Look at me, I can't even go to the activities because I'm grounded even if I'd love to.

You have no idea how we try so hard to squeeze in our time between our academics and spare time just to process and arrange these activities. It's nerve-wracking, I tell you. Lately, I've been thinking nonstop if people would even bother to show up in the food blogging seminar on March 3.

For crying out loud, please don't do this to us. This is also for you. You are part of this community. Do your part. We're doing everything we can to motivate aspiring writers with anything that we can do.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY FOUR

4. A picture of you doing something weird but funny.

Me with tissue that I already used to wipe my face in my mouth. Megusta.jpg

SO MANY THINGS TO DO. SO LITTLE TIME.

I'm gonna continue the 50 Day Challenge as soon as all the things I need to do are done.

No1curr

-I get so angry when I try to cook and something goes off like the fire wasn't on or the consistency is wrong. It happened a while ago and I'm still in bad mood. I don't know why I act that way and I don't even want self-pity to come out of this blog again. I want to be better than everyone else in this household.

-Fons, I want to hug you so badd for being so helpful to us. I love you so much and thank you for everything. I wish I could save money to throw you an appreciation party.

-Gary and Sharmaine, I also love you guys. I hope I could ace DASALGO because of you. You are my other favorite couple next to Kimchard.

-Finding a soul mate is never this easy. I can't explain my ideal soul mate because I do not want to bring anyone's hopes down.

-EVERYONE READ SAKAMICHI NO APOLLON!!!!

Friday Feb 17 2012

So today I only had one class (statistics). We were dismissed early so that we could enjoy the culminating activity of our University Week. I'm not the type of guy who really spends his time in once in a year school fairs. Forgive me, I am a boring person.

But hey, I got to have a look around the booths and the things set up to make it lively for everyone. I had a meeting Gary and Sharmaine after 4 for our project in DASALGO so I wasn't able to try the bull, the jousting and the henna tattoo. I bought a shirt after the meeting which was cool because it had a flying saucer and two owls.

The only thing that sucked today was the LRT was broken today and I wasn't able to ride on any public transportation until around 5.45 pm. Thankfully, a bus came at that time.

GAAAAH I WANT TO KILL MYSELF!!!!

I reset all my settings in my PCSX2...and now all my save files are GONE!!!

Everything I played in Final Fantasy X, Shadow Hearts and Persona 4...ALL GOOOONE!!!

ALL THE TIME THAT I'VE WASTED....GONE!!!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK. TANGINAAAAAAA I WANNA SHOOT MYSELF.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

Valentine's Day

-I had to look like a moron trying to look for that meme shirt my sister wants me to buy for her. Unfortunately, I couldn't find it.

-This year's LEAP was the best one yet. First because was Anya and I (plus Angie) handled it. Second was because we had a very interesting discussion about the movie we showed (which was "Insiang" and I am going to write a review about it soon). Third was we spent the rest of the time looking at hilarious videos on YouTube and having a date with Chris Kendall (a.k.a. crabstickz).

-We went to Rox's birthday party in a Filipino buffet in RP and went to Timezone after. Sadly, I wasn't able to play Tekken Tag Tournament 2 (OMG) because I don't want to spend my money for now.

That sums up my Valentine's Day. What happened to yours? I hope you had a good one. x

This is my submission for Scribbles

And I'm posting this here in case it doesn't make it to the cut.

I want to play the bass again.

Yes, I had a bass guitar. I had it since 2008. I've played it several times but became really impatient and frustrated with it. Now, it's lying in another room, waiting for me to stroke it's strings.

Thinking about it, I don't want to play existing songs anymore. I want to make my own melodies with it. It's like my view on drawing. I don't want to draw existing characters, I want to create my own by drawing them.

I need to have it fixed though since it won't play on the amplifier. The guitar itself is the problem basically.

My 5-year old (kid) sense of humor

Me: *feeling sick during statistics class because I only slept for five hours and had class at 8.30am*
Me: *looks at the permutations on board to take down notes*
Me: *sees 'dede' written on board*
Me: (to myself) dede
Me: *snickers* *remembers something* *holds laughter*
Me: *feels better*

Kbye.

Things that bother me on Facebook

1. Disturbing pictures
Seriously, is this the place where you can pass around disgusting pictures of beaten up animals and children? You think this is going to help stop violence? Stop eating your twinkies and get out of the fucking net. Donate some fucking money. Go to a fucking fund run.

2. Graphic pictures of sick people
Same as above. Donate some fucking money. We don't need to see children with bloated heads to feel sorry for them. Dumb shits.

3. Corny and shitty posts/reposts from 9gag
Just. Fuck off. 9gag is getting shittier by the minute.

4. Pictures that prove that God exists
I believe that He exists but are you trying to preach with stupid pictures that proves He exists?

Rant

I've been working on this program all day. No one seems to have finished it yet. I die.

Todayzzzzzzz

-Eri!!! You so fly gurl...you is lookin fly!!!

-ADVANSE wuz lyk hell yo

-I haz the best champorado in years man

-I iz lazy yo

As long as my best friend is not happy, I am not happy.

Oh btw

My Flapjacks section will not be about my opinions current issues but what is going on that matters to me. It isn't necessarily something related to news and such.

The reason? I admit that I don't give a fuck about the world half of the time. That is all.

Camwhoring with Blanche

I only uploaded my favorites and perhaps the decent ones in this photo session. Enjoy.

HERE WE GOOOOO..HERE WE GOOOOOOO!!

I've been trying to cheer up my best friend. She laments over the loss of her PC and she's given a deal by a friend of hers on a new one. The problem is that she doesn't want to think about her debt within the year.

Apparently, her old PC is working but with a few things not working. She wants to sell it to someone who's willing to revive it and keep it for his or her own use. To this day, people wouldn't want t buy her PC because they don't have enough money or they have enough computers at home.

I hope I could help her in some way, so she would be happy with a new PC. That's all she needs to be happy (besides us her friends, family and food).

GAAAAAH!! O_O

Lately I've been accidentally discovering many artists and I'm itching to download their albums. I've listened to only half of the albums I download and sometimes it takes months or YEARS before I get to listen to the albums or immerse myself into their music.

It's so frustrating.

I might make a list of recommendations or some sort of weekly chart of tracks.

Good evening.

Another Irrelevant Skyrim Post

Hello.

Ok, so Weever is level 29. I want to put on some screencaps but I need to ask some friends how to do it. You can't do it by PrintScreen alone. Modifications are required.

I've accomplished the ff. from the quests:
-I'M THE ARCHMAGE OF WINTERHOLD COLLEGE. ABLOOBLOOBLOO!!!

-I am doing Winterhold quests now.

DREAMS 1: Batman and Robin Hood?

It was a Nolan Batman film. There was this scene that we were investigating some documents that Bruce Wayne signed. There was a name that intrigued us (I forgot the name). It was some sort of pseudonym of someone who also signed that certain document. We knew Bruce was making a reference to a legend.

This legend was somehow similar to Robin Hood. This monk was Robin Hood's most trusted ally and assassin. When they were captured after so many killings done by the empire to track them down. They were liberated from the castle by some allies and they burned down the empire's castle. The monk, being loyal to Robin, decided to stay by gods I don't know why. He died a hero for Robin and his merrymen. I couldn't remember what happened next before I woke up.

I'm sorry the dream was pretty off in terms of detail but I assure you it was one of the best dreams I've ever had. It was pretty epic and tragic to me.

Kthxbye. Waffles. x

Hassle.

-Yeah, I already mentioned about that epic fail of "sending" my seatwork via email to myself. I hope I could get it tomorrow.

-I have to go to school on Wednesday because I forjot to pay for the LEAP t-shirt and the LEAP kit after so many extensions.

-Looks like my spare time will be consumed by going to the gym every Tuesday and Thursday. I shouldn't miss a session if I want to get fit this year. Fuck.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: Day 3

3. Write with your elbow.

hygeed,kkl,lokl ,m ndjxzskjmmntygujazSaU

(Hello. Fuck today.)

Today

-I had a nice dream that I will explain in another post.

-Pau told me about this creepy Japanese urban legend.

-We did this seatwork today in ADVANSE and I'm so pissed right now because I thought I already emailed it to myself. Now I have to do it again. Fuck.

50 Day Challenge: DAY 2

2. Write whatever it is in your head right now.

Ok, so I'm done with this homework due tomorrow and I'm about to make a sandwich for tomorrow. I'm also happy to learn that my best friend got a new machine after her old one broke down. 

I should do this kind of work flow often: while doing homework, do it in another room away from laptop, then check laptop after each milestone for 5 - 10 minutes.

50 Day Challenge: DAY 1

1. A picture of something you hate.

I hate this fucking group.

50 DAY CHALLENGE?!?!? O.O

1. A picture of something you hate.
2. Write whatever it is in your head right now.
3. Write with your elbow.
4. A picture of you doing something weird but funny.
5. A picture of your friends being silly.
6. Write a paragraph to somebody - it could be anybody you want, even someone you haven’t met yet.
7. Write something deep.
8. Write something stupid.
9. Post an audio of yourself talking some random.
10. Post a song that you can’t stand.
11. Post a song that you used to love.
12. Post a picture of you smiling.
13. Put 10 things you want to do in the year.
14. 9 reasons to love you.
15. 8 reasons to hate you.
16. 7 things you have in your bed.
17. 6 things you can’t live without.
18. A picture of the thing you love the most.
19. A picture of the person you love the most.
20. Pour your heart out in two paragraphs.
21. Your favorite book and why?
22. 5 movies you recommend.
23. 4 ways to win your heart.
24. 2 pictures of you - one doing a funny face the other one being serious.
25. How you see yourself by the end of your year
26. Do you believe in love at first sight - why?
27. A song that makes you cry.
28. 1 thing you want to do before you die.
29. Favorite type of music.
30. To go to a party or to stay home - why?
31. Give 15 tips to your followers to get through life.
32. The worst thing that has ever happened to you.
33. A picture of the happiest moment of your life - if you don’t have, explain that moment.
34. Favorite store in the whole planet.
35. Are you bored of this challenge? yes no, why?
36. Favorite tweet.
37. Favorite tumblr post you have ever seen.
38. A picture of your family, are you close to them, yes, no?
39. Write a letter to your future husband - wife.
40. Best experience you have ever had - the one that you have learn the most of.
41. Favorite trailer.
42. Favorite planet of earth.
43. Recommend 10 blogs to follow.
44. Recommend 5 songs.
45. Recommend 8 books.
46. Recommend 2 websites.
47. Write a paragraph to your followers.
48. Post a picture of you, 3 facts.
49. Talk about the most awkward moment in your life.
50. Draw something on paint.

Shit just got real, Blanche

idk

MY CRAZY LIST

These are things I want to try in my life because I want to do crazy things. The only problem is that I won't be able to do them easily. I need to grow a pair to be able to accomplish them with density.

-Try marijuana and acid (I don't care if it has adverse effects or whatever. I just want to TRY).
-Go to school or any other place in drag.
-Punch someone in the face.
-Shout out "You're so normal! I don't like you." whenever I meet an overtly normal person.
-Stalk a celebrity.
-Pretend to be a pedicab driver.
-Walk/run around naked in the house.
-Pull out an epic meal time.

This list is incomplete. You can help by expanding it.

Let's face it

I suck at writing blogs. I look like I'm trying too hard. I am not as awesome as everyone.

I am not fishing for compliments.

MOVIE REVIEW: Underworld: Awakening

Starring: Kate Beckinsale, Michael Ealy, Stephen Rea, Theo James and India Eisley

So far, I've only seen this and the second film in the Underworld series.

What I like about this film is that they were able to introduce to us Selene, the main character of the series as a mother fighting to protect her child and her race. The story is set in the future where humans are eradicating the "infected" ones (vampires and werewolves that were into hiding in the human world). I won't go further into the details of the plot since I don't want to spoil you guys (way to go Captain Obvious).

I enjoyed this film because of the action scenes and the continuity of the plot. I also like some of the characters because they played their roles well in the story. I also like the cinematography of a few scenes because they kind of reminded me of (obviously) The Matrix with a blend of their own unique visuals. What I don't like about it is that the movie was too fast paced and some scenes that could have been improved.

I'm going to give this film a solid 7.5/10 because it's a good sequel with a few flaws. The Underworld series for me is a well-written one due to how it portrays vampires and werewolves. I also love Selene as a character because she is a total badass.

Good grief

-Going to post a review of Underworld: Awakening by gods I don't know when.
-I forgot to post Three Awesome Things last Saturday...I guess this isn't an awesome week...although a few awesome things happened.
-I'm hoping to get things done before the end of this long weekend.

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI!!

A CAT POST

I wish I could understand our cat because I'm the one responsible for him.

Before I continue on, let me introduce him to you guys.

:3

This is William. He's a ginormous Persian cat. My achi's boyfriend gave him to us last Christmas 2008 since his family couldn't take care of him anymore. They have a lot of pets in their house already. He's five years old and he's very gentle.

Okay, my problem here is that lately he wants to go out of the house. We cage him outside the garage at my everyone's wishes (I wish he could just stay inside and roam freely). He would wait by our door to the garage until it opens and he would be able to escape.

I don't know if this is because of our other dog who bothers him a lot (we leash that dog whenever William is out) or  is it because he's hungry (but we feed him canned food twice a day). Is it because there's a rat outside that he can sense (I forbade him to eat such filthy pests) or he wants to mate with another cat.

I tried letting him go outside and make him eat grass because he might want to regurgitate something (hairball, whatever). The problem is that my sister and mom do not want him to do that.

We've pampered him with good food, good shelter, a clean litter box, a scratch post and medicine for his sniffles. I don't know if he really wants to be outside but I can't just leave him there. Everyone's busy and tired, especially me. I just want him to roam freely and be the least of my problems since I can't attend fully to his needs.

Kimbie, if you're reading this, please help me on this one. Thank you.

A really long burn about Soul Calibur V (and maybe the whole series so far)

I've been anticipating this game since I found out that it will be released this year. I thought the series would conclude with IV and Broken Destiny, but boy I was wrong...

I wanted to buy this game because first and foremost, I am a huge fan of the Soul series. I even preferred it to Tekken because it was weapons based and I love the bond between humans and their weapons.

Before Soul Calibur, there was Soul Edge/Soul Blade

The first one was amazing. 

II was the first game to feature guest characters.

III was the first to have a Character Creation mode.

Yes, IV featured Star Wars characters.

Second, was because of the new storyline (17 years after the events of IV) that focuses on Sophitia's children and the new and returning characters. The graphics are so much better than IV, as how detailed the character models, weapons and stages are.

Lastly was because of the new and improved Character creation mode. It offers so much freedom compared to the last two SC's.

Now, I am thinking twice about buying this goddamn perverted game. I will tell you why.

First, the game is very fanservice-centered and very sexist. Especially with the character, Ivy. I mean, I love her because she's badass but the series would make excuses for her to stay in the game and exclude the other characters because she has fucking sex appeal. Take a look at this ad and look how lame it is. I don't know if this is some kind of tongue-in-cheek thing or something to please the guys into buying the game.

Jiggle jiggle

Also, they took out Taki and Seong Mina. Probably because they're fucking 40+ in the game. How come Mitsurugi and Maxi got to stay if they're like 45 or 46?? Watch this video to see what I mean.

Secondly, they left out some of my favorites that could've been in this installment. THEY. TOOK. OUT. MY. SETSUKA. And worse, they gave her fighting style to this guy.

Who's apparently the ALTERNATE version of this guy.

Seriously, I think the developers of this series have become very lazy and I think Namco is giving more way to Tekken. They could've given it to some new character and shit but no. They gave it to this dark version of this dude and they even got rid of the umbrella.

Lastly, here are two leaked screenshots of the full roster of the game. Click here to know more about the game and its characters.

Yes, Kilik is back but wasn't he succeeded by a new character? WHERE'S
ROCK, TALIM, SETSUKA, ZASALAMEL SEONG-MINA AND YUN-SEONG??

Is this one of your excuses to bring back Sophitia or one of your angel/goddess
fetishes?

My only complaints about this game is that the story is not presented well, unlike in Tekken. I also think the series so far is much more focused on gameplay than giving us the feel of following the stories, characters, etc. As I said above, the game is also centered on fan service.

I am very disappointed by how the latest game might turn out. I mean, I've been a long time fan of the series and they've been screwing it up lately. From what I can see, the presentation of the story may look promising but the casting is just awful.

I might be getting this game so that I could follow the story and see what the game has to offer. I hope I change my mind about this game once I play it and I hope the series would improve since I could induce that game developers today are becoming lazy in terms of writing and casting. The recent Final Fantasy games are losing their touch though I might be wrong when Versus XIII and Type-0 are going to be released soon.

I really hope playing this game will prove me wrong. I hope it won't disappoint me so I could continue admiring the Soul Series and anticipate another game.

Shut up, L.A.R.S.

I keep getting homework, work and other things mixed up. I end up procrastinating again by napping and going to unnecessary sites. I keep in forgetting to turn on the website blocker. Yes, I am a f-ing control freak. GYAAAH. D:

Am I becoming lazy? It's the 2nd week of school. No, please continue doing good. This is one last chance before becoming an immortal. Do your best and everyone will do the rest.

Is it the end of the internet for everybody?

T___T

Okay, enough with pron and on with the real world. The internet is doomed but not if we do something about it. Wikipedia and Reddit will be down for the whole day tomorrow in protest against SOPA/PIPA. Oh wait, a lot of sites will close down tomorrow. I don't even have to say how bad this is.

Why does this issue matter to us anyway? Most of the sites we visit are based on the US (including 4chan). When this thing gets passed on, we won't be able to access anything that we want. Music, movies, information, etc.

I'm not a person who understands the news very well. All of these information are condensed from research and from other reliable sources. If you want to know more about SOPA/PIPA, please check these sites:

One Page Sopa (thanks Remil!) 

Techdirt article (Thanks Pau!!)

Wikipedia message

SOPA WIkipedia article

PIPA Wikipedia article

Thanks to Remil and Pau for clearing everything out. Spread the word. SAVE THE INTERNET, SAVE THE WORLD.

I suddenly became depressed today.

This is one of the moments where I suddenly contemplate on things (including myself) and look back on my past that I've forgotten long ago. This is also one of the moments where I don't wanna do anything at all.

I don't know if this is from having a few hours of sleep (I couldn't sleep last night and had to wake up at around 6:30) or because of that critical thinking exam a lot of us took a while ago.

I don't even want to do important things right now. It's part of my routine to exercise three times a week and do my daily tasks.

Do I need rest?
Why is the sky blue? What is the meaning of life?
What am I doing here? Why do I exist?

IS THIS THE REAL LIFE OR IS THIS JUST FANTASY?

Adurrdurrdurrdurr

*dies*

I'm fat.

My parents called me fat.

My sister called me fat.

What brand new information.

P.S. I'm doing everything to get in shape.

I love this software

We were required to use Blender for our 3DMODEL elective course. I am enjoying it so much. If I could teach you guys, let's make an animated film together.

WHAT IS THAAAAT? .___.

MOVIE REVIEW: Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows

Now, where is that switch?

The Good: The fight scenes and special effects were greatly done. The plot of the film was well-written and well-executed. There were a lot of hilarious scenes that at least did not dominate the entire film. Robert Downey, Jr. and Jude Law have very good chemistry in the film. Naomi Rapace was not a bad addition to the cast. The other characters were also great in the film.

The Bad: Some people might not understand what they're talking about, especially with Dr. Watson and Mycroft Holmes around. Some might think it did not live up to its predecessor because of some of the plot's flaws.

Overall: I really did enjoy this movie mostly because of the good parts I've mentioned above although there were some scenes got me bored. It also made me think that Sherlock might be in control of the entire case. Compared to the first one, I did not feel as observant as Sherlock ought to be after watching. I was also expecting Moriarty to be more menacing as he was in the first movie but at least he was portrayed as a good match for Sherlock. I do recommend this film for those who have seen the first or for those who are huge fans of Sherlock Holmes, detective stories, mystery novels, action films and bromance.

Score: 7.8/10

My Facebook account

I haven't told anyone that I re-opened my Facebook account for a group project in a major subject and for everything to be easier in org related stuff. I won't be posting that much though but I'll still continue to 'like' what ever you're posting that matters to me. x

Life Lessons from the Swimming Pool

Life is one big swimming pool.

I go swimming every Wednesday only if I have the luxury of time. In one of those Wednesdays, I thought about comparing life to swimming. While doing some laps, I checked if I was near the end of the pool. It turned out that I got disoriented from swimming. The lesson here is that when you are doing something in life, try not to expect so much from it. Perseverance is the key word here. All my life, I've been trying to be the best in whatever I'm doing. I compared myself to other people. It hurt me sometimes since I always thought of how some of them were able to do well because they have been doing it for years while I was just starting now. That kind of thinking led me to many troubles and hindrances in academic performances, friend relationships and life goals.

Now, this realization really helped me through what am I doing now. I have become more patient and persevering than before. I know that this has been taught to me ever since but it became more practical to me now. What other lessons could I learn from the swimming pool other than perseverance? What lies beneath the waters shall remain a mystery that I should soon uncover once I continue swimming.

Redesigned and reformatting my blog

Go have a look if you dare. As for reformatting, check previous post. x

Ideas for my blog

Here are some of the things that might go around the blog every week:

-Music/movie/food recommendations

-Random bullet your whole day (maybe a coin flip or a dice roll can decide this)

-Opinions on current events

-Less of personal stuff and more of informative ones

What do you think?

3 Awesome things this week. [JAN 4 2012]

1. Angie's my classmate in INTFILO.

2. I get to be productive in the first week of school.

3. I watched Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows today and it was fantastic. Oh the bromance.

Here you go, my three awesome things this week. I shall post this post every Saturday.

30 Day Challenge: DAY 30

Yes, this is the last one.


"Words are meaningless
Especially sentences.
They don't stand for anything.
How can I explain how I feel?"


-Bedtime Story by Madonna


"Ten days of perfect tunes

The colors red and blue
We had a promise made
We were in love "
and

"And you, you knew the hand of a devil
And you kept us awake with wolves teeth
Sharing different heartbeats in one night"

-Heartbeats by The Knife


"Whatever you want
I'm giving you one more thing
That'll turn your world around
Since our meanings have gone
You'll still be the one who understands"

-Whatever by Iris


"And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I
Would like to say to you but I don't know how"

-Wonderwall by Oasis

"I'm workin' a sweat
But it's all good
I'm breakin' my back
But it's all good
'cause I know I'll get it back
Yeah, I know your hands will clap"

-I'm Good I'm Gone by Lykke Li

30 Day Challenge: DAY 29

Day Twenty-Nine: Top Five Biggest Guilty Pleasures

1. I watch teleseryes sometimes.

2. Cleaning my ears/picking my nose

3. Sisig/chicharon 

4. Stuffed toys (for a guy like me)

5. These songs: [1] [2] [3] [4]

Back to reality (what am I doing?)

That was a worthwhile vacation. I don't get to see all of my friends as planned but at least I get to see them again tomorrow.

I took seven subjects (17 units) this term. I guess this is going to be a very hectic one. I only need 11 more units to be immortal and I need to pass Data Structures to be able to start with thesis. I don't think I'll be able have time for things that I've been doing in the past. Sadness.

I have deactivated my Facebook account. I don't know when will I put it back again. What am I doing? Facebook has been so useful to me since I can talk to people there easily but at the same time, it's very distracting. Plus, my family members try to snoop around and see my angsty posts. I dunno how they could see them even if I blocked most of them from seeing my posts. Dammit.  

I also blocked social networking on weekdays (or on times I have to study for exams). 

Lastly, I need to find a way to be able to balance my search for knowledge and creative process. I need to split time between studying and be able to press on with my writing/drawing.

That's all. Friends: see you all tomorrow! x

30 Day Challenge: DAY 28

Day Twenty-Eight: Top Five Favorite TV Shows

Wow, I don't watch TV that much anymore but I'll try to answer it with my best. I'm gonna put the ones I've watched for the past two years.

1. Spongebob Squarepants

2. Mythbusters

 

3. Nigella

4. Courage the Cowardly Dog

5. Ellen