This Horrible/Good Week

+Stayed in Malate office for residency. I met some new people. They're amazing.

+Had my first IRL conversation with Ram when we went home together. He sort of fucked with my brain with his questions.

+The World Building workshop was a success!! Thank you so much Pau, Angie, Lanz...EVERYONE for being part of this.

+There was supposed to be a prose workshop last Saturday but classes were suspended and it was already flooded in school.

+Got to watch "The Dark Knight Rises". SO AWESOME. But honestly, I liked the second one better because of Joker.

RANT (basically how everyone feels in a group I guess)

Do I have to be the one to constantly remind everyone in the group? Do I have to be the one who will tell everyone what to do? Do I have to be the one to do all the thinking?

WHAT IF I FORGET THIS? WHAT IF I FORGET THAT?

PLEASE. Please be the one who will remind me. Please be the one to ask me what's happening.

LET'S ALL BE PROACTIVE AND NOT JUST ME.

Music Recommendations III

Dream-like rock

1. Take a Picture - Filter
2. Sextape - Deftones
3. Into the Ocean (Calling You) - Evermore
4. Weird Fishes/Arpeggi - Radiohead
5. Aqueous Transmission - Incubus
6. You Look So Fine - Garbage
7. Champagne Supernova - Oasis
8. Walking After You - Foo Fighters
9. Breaking the Girl - Red Hot Chili Peppers
10. All Is Full of Love - Bjork

Pain and Suffering

I can finally feel the stress of everyone that I know. I've always wanted to feel everyone's pain and suffering because I hate it when I don't suffer and they do.

It feels good.

This has been the worst week of my life. I'm going to bed. Good night, motherfuckers.

So fucking lonely

Sometimes I'm not able to do stuff because I feel lonely. My family does keep me company here but lately I'd prefer my best-est friends to be around here. Sometimes I don't even want to leave my friends behind when at school. I just hate this feeling.

This Week so Far

• Made a new friend
• MIDTERMS!!!
• Received some (a little bit) shocking news about some of my relatives
• Progress with thesis proposal and topic
• Just done with the interview for Malate and exam tomorrow
• Tomorrow's gonna be a super hectic Friday (WG activities, friend's lunch party, Art in Action, etc)
• Got to write something. I'm gonna write an anthology instead.

I hope this week ends with a BANG. Just can't wait for tomorrow.

Attachment

Okay, here's my problem about being attached to people: I tend to be clingy if I like the person.

 I dunno....I also don't want people to be too clingy, especially if I don't like them. I just wish people won't be angry at what I'm doing I mean...it's not like I'm in love with them or something. It's just fun to be with certain people for a while but I think that sometimes, we need to give them some space.

I'm writing this out of fear that things won't go awkward between me and my friends, especially my newly acquainted one.

Strange Things Happen: MY BLOG HELPED SOMEONE AND I'M SO HAPPY.

Ok, I suddenly made a shout out to this guy who my friend knows because he commented on that friend's status. I recognize him because he liked a dozen of my posts in Tumblr. He suddenly thanked me for my posts and asked me to see him tomorrow. I'm so proud to have made a friend instantly.

Damn you FB

I thought FB was going to be the most effective way to communicate with my groupmates. In fact, it's not. Nobody's cooperating with me. At certain times they do but mostly, shit doesn't get real.

I'm done.

There. I changed my blog style.

It looks more MINIMALIST now because I'M SO HIPSTER.

LOL kidding. I might make my own background image. *wink* *wink*

The Legendary Glen Miller Orchestra

Okay, let me just say that this was a great show. It felt like you were in some 40's film where you waltzed around town in your zoot while driving a fancy car on your way to a cabaret show. The orchestra played music that was composed during the World War II. 

This happened last Monday. I know this is a late post but better late than never. I went to this concert with my friends Pau, Nicol, John (and his dad) and Fons. Pau got us some sponsored tickets from a friend so we got to watch it for free. Before I begin, I should share some things that happened other than the show itself: the audience was full of old people and we were only among the few young ones around here. It was a funny experience and we were quite flattered when the old people were surprised that we appreciate their music. Another is that I sat beside John's dad and he told me about the songs being played. He's an awesome dad.


The show started with Mr. Arthur Manintang, who was said to be the country's best crooner. He was damn good and the audience loved him because he sang so well up to the point where he mentioned that he was not feeling well. I was amazed on how he poured his heart out even though he was sick and the best part was he did an impression of his legendary singing heroes such as Leonard Cohen, Nat King Cole, Ray Charles, Michael Bolton and others while singing "What a Wonderful World".

Next, the show itself was amazing. There were parts where there were vocalists that were singing with the music. I have to love Wendy Brunet (I don't know if that is the correct spelling) but she has a wonderful voice. I also love the Swing Kittens posing as the Andrew's Sisters. They were so adorable. They were actually one of the reasons why I went to this concert because I started admiring them through Christina Aguilera's "Candyman" video. I forgot the name of the male vocalist but he was also damn good.

Watching this show has been very insightful for me because it's music that might be forgotten in later decades but I'm sure that a few people in our generation would still appreciate this kind of music. It also helped me expand my musical tastes, which is important for me. And lastly, it was a not-so-perfect time to forget about homework. I really had a good time and I hope there would be more of this to perform live here.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: Day 8

8. Write something stupid.

What if there was a movement for hipsters against Instagram where they use glitter graphics, LENS FLARE or other visually appalling shit to filter their pictures? XD

Problematic

Academics aside, I think I'm experiencing problems with people.

One thing is that I feel alone and out of place sometimes. I can't even tell my own friends about my deepest, darkest secrets because I don't want them to be annoyed or disturbed by it. I might even end up talking about it all day. I'm going insane.

I just figured out that someone I like likes someone else. I wanted to tell her that I want to take care and even protect her even if I know she can do that to herself. It's nothing very romantic. Maybe we can still be good friends.

I can't stop thinking about this guy right now. I'm afraid that he might be just another asshole I fell in love with. I don't think he'll even reciprocate because he's straight. I would understand where he's coming from. He's just so interesting and we commonly like and hate a lot of things.

If you want to talk to me about it, do not hesitate but for the sake of friendship, you might as well don't. I hate ruining friendships as much as you do.

50 DAY CHALLENGE: DAY 7

7. Write something deep.

Surely, we 90's people have a generation to boast about. We watched the best TV shows and cartoons on television that we can relate too. We had the best toys that we played when we were kids.. We played the best games in our Jurassic computers and consoles. 

Right now, I think people are assuming that the new generation is retarded. Look at the new episodes of Spongebob. Look at these new cartoons spewing out nonsense that I can't even comprehend (I'm not talking about Adventure Time, Phineas and Ferb or Chowder because at least there are some good cartoons being aired). Listen to these Top 40 songs that old people call "noise". 

I get really upset when I see these posts on the net about "Repost if you remember this" or "If you had this, your childhood was awesome" because I pity the generation now. They're being exposed to things that don't even have a meaning. If you've watched cartoons like the old "Dexter's Lab" or "Johnny Bravo", you'll soon realize that people who made these shaped us to be aware of things around us and not some stupid slapstick comedy.

 Generally, the music today  was even considered very risky back then and these kids are already being exposed to explicit, distasteful stuff. At least our music, TV shows and cartoons before were obscure and discreet until we grow old and find out what the fuss was all about and we can relate to them in a good way.

When I grow older and have children, I am going to make them watch these cartoons I used to watch and the music I used to listen to when I was a kid. I don't want them to be exposed to these nonsensical, brain draining hooplah in the mainstream. I'm not being hipster, I'm being smart. I want the upcoming generation to be exposed to things they can relate to and can find a deeper meaning in them in order to find themselves rather than conform themselves to everything that is "in". It's all because these mainstream shit are so shallow that it hurts my brain and make me want to weep for humanity.